Being left behind

Had a meet up with my Smart2 gang last weekend. I didn't even know about it till the last hour!! *haha* Aunty text me and ask if I am going? And I asked her go what?? Apparently ShuLing sent out the invites via FB and I haven't logged in for the longest time!! Anyway, am glad I made it though I was more than an hour late =D *Eh first time aunty is earlier than me and reached there like 15mins before me!!*

Although only 5 out of the original 14 of us that turned out, it was fun chatting and catching up with these girls.... some of whom I haven't seen for a looooong time =D

And you know what?? Out of the 5 of us, 3 of us are in LDR!! Talking bout statistics, I realised that out of the 5 of us, I'm the only one who's left in Sunway!! I don't know is that a =( or a =) haha!! This year will be my fifth year already!!! Is the grass always greener the other side?? I have been told the grass is greener where you water it!! Truth to be said, I am not bored of my work yet!! There are still a lot to learn... I have transferred to my current company for almost 3 years and my current division for almost 2 years... My new KRA has much more responsibilities but........ I just can't help but wonder what if I am one of those who left and not the one being left behind.

I've seen a lot of people leave, some are happier, some are not. Some even came back in the end or wanted to come back. But at least they did leave.... Why am I always the one being left behind? Sometimes I really wonder when will it be the day that I am confidently and happily leaving instead of being left behind. I'm not just talking about work. But anything in life. Seems like my life, those around me are leaving and I am being left behind......

Taken before Honeydrew left - leaving me behind

Taken before my bro left - leaving me & mimi behind

Taken before Ema & Joey (the Mantec consultants) left - leaving me behind

I'm thinking if I don't leave something behind, something new won't start! I used to think of leaving to do MBA but seems like my priority changed since I started my e-shop. Once a while it did cross my mind too to leave home and live on my own, to have my own place but seems like the thought of having to clean the house and do my own laundry and ironing put me off!! =P I did think of leaving my job at one point and even went for interviews but some how I just decided not to. At times, when Honeydrew talk about marriage, the thought of leaving single hood to start a new chapter of my life did cross my mind and when I think of all the commitment and responsibilities that follow, I know I'm not ready to do that just yet!!

I wonder am I afraid of change?? Is what I am having now already the best I can do for myself?? Do I think too much and is not willing to take risk?? Sometimes I wonder, what do I want in life?? Don't get me wrong, I'm not sad or depress or having any problems.... but am just thinking of the WHAT-IF!!

Anyway, here are a few weddings that I have attended recently and not so recent!! Congratulations to these people who have made the decision to leave behind single hood =)

Steven!! Soon to be dad!! Starting a whole new chapter in his life!!

Seriously, I can't imagine what I would be like as a mum!! Just look at my baby oreo!! I'm supposed to be his mummy taking care of him. When I brought him home, I promised my mimi that I will feed him every day, bathe him every week and even pick up his poo poo... I think I only did that for like a week plus and totally left my responsibility behind!! (Haha yes finally I left something behind!! =P) Now my mimi is the one who take cares of my baby oreo. So you see, how la if I'm a mum??

Congratulations to Hung!! He left not just his singlehood but also left to Abu Dhabi for work!! I'm sure there will be soooo much changes in his life!!

My cousin who is a year younger than me is married as well!! She is also a soon to be mum!! Congratulations!!

At the wedding, both my parents busy reading newspaper and left me behind to rot alone =P

Me & my parents =)

Me & my cousin. Haven't seen her for many many years and she is soooooooo pretty now!!!!! And also so tall!! Why am I so short leh =(

My cousin & hubby

Oh and one more!! HF!! Who left behind not just her single hood but also her job, her family and the country to Shanghai!! She is the champion la she gets to leave behind soooo many things and gonna start a totally new and different life!! haha =P Anyway all the best to her!!

I guess I'll be watering the grass on this side here for the time being......